Friday, 29 January 2016
Baseline scan
Monday, 25 January 2016
Clumsy or not?
Uh-oh, another bruise. I thought I would be getting better at injecting myself but I'm not. It seems I'm developing a kind of pattern. When I inject in the left side of my lower belly, it doesn't hurt but it bruises. If I inject the middle section, oh it hurts. The right side is problem-free so far. Rick asked me why don't I just inject in the right side then but I was told to alternate sides and cover the whole 'big smile' area (belly button being the 'nose'). I'm starting to get a bit worried for when I'm doing two injections a day (buserelin and Gonal F). On the other hand hopefully the baseline scan in 4 days will be good and will be able to start the stimulation phase of the treatment soon. Only if I start my period though. That is essential to have happened before the scan, otherwise we will have to reschedule it for next week or later. My period is supposed to start today but nothing yet. I should calm myself down as there is still a few days window before panicking and calling the clinic.
Here is a picture of my 2in1 bruise (the one from last Friday, 10 days ago, still hasn't disappeared, making the left side of it blue-yellowish and right side blue-dark purple, sorry for that much detail but it looks like my best piece of art work).
First injection
The very first injection didn't hurt at all but gave me a massive bruise. I bruise very easily so it didn't really surprise me and I did ask the nurse about it. All good. It made me feel a bit...different. I might have been all just in my head but I did feel a bit strange. Bit of a headache and my belly stang for a while. I spent the rest of the day resting in bed, went to sleep early and the next day I was back to normal.
Today, when I decided to start this blog, it is day 8 of buserelin. A few days ago the injection stang and itched a lot for couple of hours but apart from that, nothing. No more bruises, no side effects. Until today. Yesterday I suffered from diarrhea and headache but I thought it might have been because we went for a birthday dinner of my boyfriend's step mum and we had a really BIG dinner, cake and all. Today I woke up with a sore throat which went away after a while just to be swapped with a headache, belly ache, chest pains and the urge to cry for no reason. Some fever occurred as well. That all kind of indicated towards OHSS (ovarian hyperstimulation syndrome) which we were warned about by the doctor and the nurses. We discussed whether we should call the clinic or go to A&E but I don't like making fuss about nothing. I eventually got better and got a Chinese takeaway out of it as well. Yay!
Nurse's discussion
My first consultation
TESE
They wheeled him back after only 45 minutes. They surprised me, I was comfy sitting in a hospital chair, his wheelchair in front of me with my legs nicely on it. We needed to move everything so the bed would fit. He was so cute. Told me he forgot to count to 10. I kept cuddling him and reassuring him that it's done now just to find out later he didn't remember first 15 minutes of being back from the theatre. Complete waste of time it was then, haha.
We were told earlier they would tell us the results before we go home. It was quite a crucial moment because we had no idea whether Rick was able to have his own baby after 8 years being it the chair. While he was in the theatre, because he was the last patient going through this procedure that day, the couple next to us got their results. I could not not hear it, there were only paper curtains between the beds. They were told the doctors did not find any sperm. They looked for it in both testicles for over hour and a half but unfortunately didn't find any mature sperm. I couldn't imagine how devastating that had to be to hear. It made me only more afraid what our result was going to be.
The urologist came fairly early, maybe half and hour after Rick was back from the theatre and told us they found sperm and extracted 6 ampoules where 1 is normally enough for one cycle. What a relief! On the other hand I felt bad for the lovely couple next to us because they had to be able to hear it too...
Got home ok with me driving and spent 3 days in bed, doctor's orders. Within 5 weeks it is nicely healed and we can't almost tell where the incision was.
Our first visit to the clinic
We arrived and everything was good, everybody was very nice. We saw a urologist and he told us about our options with sperm retrieval. After a little chat we ruled out electro-ejaculation and also PESA (percutaneous epididymal sperm aspiration - trying to suck sperm from epididymis with a fine needle) and decided for full surgical retrieval called TESE (testicular sperm extraction) where a small incision is made and sperm is retrieved 'manually' directly from testicle.
But first Rick needed to get some blood tests done to see if his testosterone levels were good and also needed to be routinely checked for hepatitis and HIV, otherwise they couldn't go forward with the procedure and subsequently freeze any sperm. We decided to go to our GP to save some money but we learned that was quite a mistake. We booked 14 days holiday in Tenerife from the end of August till 9th September 2015 and they didn't have any free appointments before our departure so had to book it for second half of September which postponed everything by approximately a month already. Also the urologist told us there is about two months waiting period for this procedure. Great. More waiting. But we kind of expected it to be quite a long journey so it wasn't that bad.
After holiday blood was taken. We were waiting for the results. One week, nothing. Two weeks, nothing. Third week we called GP to find out. Oh, they were there after a few days from the blood taking. Hmm... Alright now, could you please fax the results to the clinic? The GP knows why and where. Ok, thanks. A week passed, no phone call from the clinic. We called them to find out they didn't get any test results. We called the GP again and asked them to fax it again. After two more calls back and forth they got the results! After that we got a confirmation letter that the TESE will take place on 15th December 2015. That wasn't even two months, only a month and a half so we were happy.
How it all started
Please see this blog only as my online diary, following our journey through IVF.
We started thinking about having a baby sometime at the beginning of last year (2015). We had to go to GP once so we thought we might as well ask them about our options in this matter. They were very nice and understandable and booked me for some blood tests to see if my hormone levels were OK. That all went well and after learning I was good to go, we were expecting referral letter to IVF clinic. Nothing came. Couple of months passed and still nothing. We found ourselves at GP again so asked about it but they said because we were there that time because of Ricky, they couldn't look into my file and check anything. Big disappointment and we felt a bit cheated. After that I booked myself an appointment to get the referral letter. That was in June or July 2015. I got to GP. There was another person in the room but have no idea who that was. I didn't mind really as it was nothing embarrassing to ask. I explained we came in a few months earlier and about the blood tests and everything and that I would like them to type me the letter and the response I got was: ,And what do you expect them to do about that?' I felt like an idiot. Well... They have their methods how to retrieve sperm from my boyfriend and how to help us conceive but they were the doctors so why should he ask me like this in a very rude and irritated way? I left with nothing and still angry I googled IVF clinics in UK. Found a nice one about 45-minute-long drive from where we live. Great. Got boyfriend to call them to see if they do people with spinal injuries. Got ourselves an appointment on August 4, 2015! Yay!